I haven’t posted in a while, hoping that life would be better the next day, hoping that I’d be able to write something less angsty as time went by… But life just has to worsen every day; I have family troubles…
I’m very close to yelling at Dad, to tell him how I really feel about what he wants of Bro and me, to tell him how much he’s hurt me for saying what he said today. Except I respect him, I still have love for him; I won’t do that. Ironic. The respect and love he said he never felt from us.
Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up…
P.S. Rest in peace, my poor little hamster. You’ve suffered enough.
Vickie Diablos is a postgraduate student in Health Informatics, a hardcore gamer geek and a socially awkward logic and science nerd. She thought keeping a "cool blog" would make her a cool person. Alas. 
Kari
21 Jun 2005
11:03 pm
I know just how you feel with the dad thing. My dad and I are like and I HAVE yelled at him and told him how I feel. Sometimes it helps, others it doesnt. I hope things get better for you hun.
Vanessa
22 Jun 2005
12:07 am
Just hang in there, I’m sure things will work out for the best. Hold strong, and don’t even think about sleeping like that. It’s too sad, I’m sure lot’s of people wouldn’t be able to live without you in their lives. So take care, and I hope things get better.
gabbi
23 Jun 2005
3:55 pm
Sometimes you just don’t get the same love back. All that matters is that your heart knows how to love, and hopefully you will learn to love yourself most of all.
Aleida
25 Jun 2005
4:44 am
Family trouble is hard. I usually don’t get along with my mom *sigh* When she’s in a bad mood she tells me I’m fat and ugly =__= *I’m soooo not* But, I found out she has some issues – her mom used to call her names all the time. – Don’t give up, seek things in life that make you happy and everything will turn out just fine, kitto katsu!
Vickie
26 Jun 2005
12:00 am
Mini follow-up, sort of. We, the whole family, talked about the problem in a civilised way. No yelling. Things were slightly better for a while.
Fabian De Rango
14 Aug 2005
6:25 pm
See things will get better eventually
Heidi Bloom
22 Aug 2005
2:03 pm
Family respect and emotion is always a complicated matter. I like your blog.